Chapter 67 – It feels sad
Chapter 67 – It feels sad
“…Thia, where… where were you? Are you… Are you okay? Sit down. I’ll go… I’ll go get you something fuzzy to hold and something warm to drink.”
“It refuses. It Wants Amy to stay with It.”
“…Oh, Thia… my poor baby… I’ve never seen you so sad before.”
“It requests a hug. It does not deserve Amy’s concern. It Wants Amy’s concern. It is conflicted. It seeks Clarity.”
“…Thia… of course. Come here.” Amy pulled It close and gently stroked It’s hair. “Thia… you’re going to be okay… Everything is alright now.”
“It is ashamed.”
“No, Thia… don’t say that. You’ve never done anything wrong. Why would you be ashamed?”
“It was not the Thia that Amy and Dad thought It to be. It has lived a life that It should not have lived. It has stolen a life that It did not deserve to have.”
“That’s not true… That’s not true! Thia! Don’t ever say that!”
“In death, Dad reunited with Dad’s True family. Dad learned the Truth of It—that Dad’s Thia had left this world long ago; that It took Thia’s place and lived a lie; that It’s role as Daughter was a lie. Dad learned that It lied to Dad from the moment It was summoned. Amy also knows that It is not Amy’s Thia.”
“No, Thia… no. That’s not true. You’re my Thia. You’re my It. And I love you for you. I always have. And dad… No matter what, you were his daughter. You were the one dad was looking at all this time. You were the one that filled dad’s life with joy. You were the one who filled The Shrine with all those memories. There was nothing fake about any of that! Dad loved you, Thia. He knew it was you. And he loved you. Just like I did. Just like I still do. Just like I always will. And no matter what you think, dad was always looking at you. He loved you more than anything in the whole wide world. You didn’t do anything wrong, Thia. Nothing is your fault.”
“. . .”
“…”
. . “Does Amy still Want to be with It?”
“Of course, Thia. Forever and ever. A million forevers. Nothing will ever change that.”
. “Did It fulfill the role of Daughter well?”
“Thia, you were the best daughter dad could have ever asked for. You were his everything and he was yours.”
“Incorrect. It did not give Dad It’s Everything. The Terms only stated that Dad had to give It Everything.”
“No, Thia… for dad… that was already everything. Even if there weren’t terms for it, you gave dad everything he ever wanted. You were his Thia, his daughter, his life… and that was everything to dad.”
“It Wants to cry.”
“Oh, Thia…”
“It lacks the necessary biology for tears.”
“Thia… Thia… everything’s going to be okay.”
“It Asks that Amy cries in place for It. The Price is—”
“…Thia, no… no price needed. I’ll… I’m already… crying… for both of us.”
“. . .”
“Oh, Thia… Thia… good girl. Everything will be okay.”
. “It remembers Dad once said that Dad would watch over It Forever, even after Dad was gone.”
“Mhm.”
“It wonders: is that True?”
“Did dad ever lie to you, Thia?”
“Dad has never lied to It.”
“…Then, if dad said it… it must be true.”
“Understood.”
“Oh, Thia… I love you so much. I wish I could do something to take away your pain. To help you let out all this hurt. To let you feel all the things you need to feel. To grieve. And to cry. Oh, Thia… Sweet bean… It’s going to be okay… Everything’s going to be okay.”
“It thinks Amy has already done so.”
“You’re so good… You’re such a good bean… How can anyone be so good in this world? Just remember that you’ll always be loved. That there are always people here for you and people looking after you. That you’ll always have me by your side no matter what happens, okay? That I’ll always love you and be here for you forever and ever. No matter what happens, remember that, okay?”
“It accepts the premise. Continue.”
“For as long as it takes. As many times as it takes. I love you.”
“It accepts the premise. Continue.”
“I love you.”
“It accepts the premise. Continue.”
“I love you.”
“It accepts the premise. Continue.”
“I love you.”
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“It Wants to comfort Amy.”
“Hm?”
“It left Amy alone when Amy was sad. It has not comforted Amy yet.”
“No, no… it’s okay. Your feelings are so much more important than mine. As long as you’re okay, I’ll be okay, too. Plus, you’ve been so cuddly today, so I’m already healed.”
“Incorrect. Amy and It are equals. Amy’s feelings are important. It wants to comfort Amy properly. Amy is also Dad’s Daughter. Amy is also sad.”
“…”
It held Amy and stroked Amy’s hair.
“…”
“. . .”
“…I love you, Thia.”
“It accepts the premise. Continue.”
“Forever.”